i hate u for making me wait so long
i hate u for rejecting me
i hate u for ignoring my feelings
i hate u for being insensitive
i hate u for being so nice to me even though i tried ignoring u
i hate u for making me sad for nothing uve done
i hate u for controlling my thoughts, mind everything

i hate myself for fallling for u
i hate myself for being angry for nth
i hate my own intense jealousy
i hate myself for not trying hard enough
i hate my determination for trying to forget u, in the end i just could not do it
i hate my own attitude towards u
i hate to be happy

I hate everything becox of u, but these thoughts are embraced by beautiful memories with u which made me forget these hatered. I wonder if what i am feeling is hatred or some other feelings. Iam confused after so long...

i love who u are
i love how u bring happiness to pple around u
i love ur smile
i love ur outgoing personality
i love ur everything

What am i feeling now exactly!!?