what do i want exactly??! Sometimes i wonder... Think iam still searching for it myself. Ever since the exams, i ve really lose confidence in all i do. Iam always constantly reminded by pple who do well. Its not that i cannot put it down, but the blow's too big. I felt like ive lost something. Probably my drive or motivation. Iam beggining to wonder if iam wasting a space of others by being in IAP. Anyway, its probably the projects which is driving me nuts and making me feel so negative so constantly! Hope to get it over with... Sorry to my team, if i got too gan chiong or unreaosnable, cox iam kiasu, i dun like the feeling of doing nth when u have free time, i hate last min work to the core, i hate taking on responsibilities, i hate looking at other teams doing project while we are not doing project. But iam trying to change, its hard, cox its in me or shall i say the wholeof my family who is a bunch of gan chiong spiders. Hahaz, and Lastly i hate projects. But no choice right? Poly's all bout tsunamis of project work. ARGH!

Lately ive read my blog, i find that my blog do not have a theme and its full of random posts. Even i also find that iam random, i always divert or come up with a topic which follows on by awkard silence from my friends. Hahaz, but i will try and not be too random and lame too.. hahaz.

On a lighter side of note, i finaly went to hawpar techno park there to collect my lappy back. They helped me reformatted and changed my processor and its like a brand new com now. Hahaz, i really love warranties.

Anyway, i think my mother and i finally stop quarreling. Really hate it when she's being so unreasonable, but i admit its my fault too and i still love my family the most even though i dread going home sometimes. But the love ive been getting from them is simply irreplacable. Hahaz... Okok, gonna go slp now... Oh.. Ive heard a song called its the end of the road by matt goss, u guys should go listen to it. VERY NICE SONG. hahaz, ciao...

---> Uve always made my dark clouds go away... <-----