Life's so contaminated, so polluted... Human minds getting so crafty, full of lies... Its just like the surface of the water. It reflects what u see on the surface but not whats beneath the surface, full of dirt, unknown pollution and unseen things. Ive lost trust, lost the feeling of why this world exist which is just to let us live and die. Often pple, do things behind ur back that u do not know, backstabings, taking whats belonging to a good friend, hurting pple with words, and loving who they are, but at the back they are saying stuffs which really hurts. Reality seems so blurred, u dunno whos real to u and whos not... Who is the one who treats u like a good friend and who is not.

Enough bout my opinion on recent stuff, but i feel so sad. why human beings have come to such days. Those days of pri sch, innocent thoughts of just being friends and not being friends with someone u dislike just does not apply to adults now. We live in a world full of deceptions. I feel kindda sad sometimes, but often at the end of the day, its my family whom i seek comfort in, whom i can trust and they surely wun fail me like how some of my friends do.

Anyway, life's been rather ok i guess. We keep complaining bout project deadlines to rush but in the end, we just have to admit that we sit and do nth when we are suppose to rush for projects and tests. I wasted one saturday just like that, not doing anything when i have a 30% test this coming monday and i confirm will not do well for that. People just do not understand why i am under so much of stress, its becox i have high expectations of myself, i hate setting high expectations and not achieving it. And so far my studies have been going down down down and down the road. Ive come to realize that i am not so ready for work life afterall. I shall walk a step and plan a step.

Anyway, today went with my family for breakfast then went to sign for a plan for MIO which is under singtel then head home and sleep like a pig and relaxing again now. Ok la, gotta go study for my test! Good luck to all pple in my jap class, though i know they wun be reading this, lolz... Bye.

----> What happens when there comes a day where u believe that ur doing something for a person just for them, and living ur life for the sake of them? (believe me, iam not refering to sucidal thoughts) <----