Its holidays which literally means having fun. But iam not. lolz. Been coooping myselfup at home doing nth but maple. Anyway, just went out with my dad this morning to lim chu kang, talked quite a lot with him, regarding his work. We all can see that he is very anguish, yet worried that the boss will not let him come back to spore. And the People he had to face there, with people backstabbing each other and stuff, this is what u called office politics. My dad says that the people there are hard to control, so there's no way to get the specific job done well.

Anyway, my best friend in pri wanna meet me, but i gaves excuses, to not meet him. I wonder whats wrong with me. Mauybe i dun like is personality now. *Shucks*
My sis asked me why am i feeling so sad nowadays, i think iam feeling anguish instead. venting my anger on them, i know its not right but i just couldn't stop myself at teh point of my rage, so i would like to apologise to them though.

I dunno why iam feeling anguish probably becoz of her. Iam always waiting for love, but nth gets reciprocated. Waiting like a fool, even though i know its impossible. Thes epast few days, i suddenly thought of my sec sch days where i liked this girl for abt 4 yrs. Kind of like a crush at first, but soon, i did stupid things to get her attention, towards the end, i was very angry for not cherishing her in the lower sec and up till upper sec, we din talk to each other, thatr period of time was considered the worst period of my life. Anyway, i would like to say sorry to her though. If ur reading this and u know who u are, pls accept my apologies and i wish u all the best.

Another thing iam feeling angry is becoz of my god damn leg! Been popping painkillers to stop the pain, after the effect is gone, the pain stilll came back and iam too lazy to see a chinese physician, so i kindda give up on bball now. Seeing people running and jumping at the bball court really makes me feel jealous.

This is a sort of a post to express my apologies to whoever they were and probably the reason why iam feeling so anguish and sad. The pain is intangible and thats probably why that its making me so unbearable. Ok la, i wanna slp, such a good weather for slping ain't it? Hahaz, ciao. Enjoy ur hoidays!!

----> If only i have u by my side, i wouldn't suffer so much now... <----