Ok, iam here to update! Yest. went to sentosa outing, quite ok la. Not very fun either. But the planning committee did a good job. Sad becoz the awa spirit is prob. gone forever. No more awa ordori! It just feels different, i still prefer awa! Anyway, jackie, dais and roxane, u guys rock!

After the whole thing ended we went to food junction at harbourfront there to eat. Kindda sian, coz no topic to tok with jackson they all. So i kindda spaced out at there. I think pple just dun like to tok to me.Prob. i dunno how to start a topic, i just dunno how to relate to pple. I always tried to tok, but in the end pple just dun hear me. So i just kept quiet, i find it better that way. Iam prob. no longer my old self. Even i also feel wierd when i tok to others, there's sort of a seclusion or like a generation gap between me and my friends. I just dunno the stuff they are toking bout. Why is it that friendships between other pple can get so close but for my case, ima just another normal fren? Feeling real bad now, i really need company, but no one to find. What the hell is wrong with me??! Maybe i need a gf, to share my problems, to be there by me when i need her, to be able to hear what i have to say and appreciate me by who i am. Ok thats all i have to say, ive changed, i dunno since when, but ive chnaged, getting quieter and becoming more and more like a stranger to the world. Is there anyone who is sensitive to my feelings and not leave me out?

----> unheard, unseen, unfelt, thats the feeling u gave me.. <------